Finally Free to Explore My Kinks

I was married for ten years but never felt truly satisfied. Since getting divorced two weeks ago, I've been exploring my darkest fantasies with a new partner every night. Last night, it was Jake in his late twenties. We started by tying me up and blindfolding me on the bed, then he used a riding crop to mark my skin gently before sliding into me while whispering kinks that pushed me to the brink of tears and laughter. The way he commanded control over our shared experience made every sensation sharp and electric. Is this normal post-divorce behavior? Do I need to slow down or should I continue diving deeper into these intense moments?