Got Hooked On CNC Roleplay With My Ex...

So, yeah, I just got out of this long-term relationship with this girl who was always into a bit more experimental stuff. We tried all sorts of things together, role-playing different scenarios and pushing boundaries here and there. One thing that really stuck though? The non-consent roleplay we did together. It’s... pretty intense when you’re fully in it, but also kinda liberating to play out those power dynamics safely with someone who respects your limits. I guess I was always a bit rebellious, ya know? So doing something like that felt almost defiant to me, breaking taboos and stuff. Plus, after some of the wilder sessions we had, it became pretty addictive... Which is crazy because there’s nothing more taboo than pretending not to want something when you do. Now I’m a little unsure what to do without her though. I don’t know if I can just go back to vanilla stuff or even find someone else to replace those moments with. Guess it was too good to be real, huh...