Why Shouldn't I Explore?

I'm engaged to a wonderful woman, but there's something inside me that craves control in the bedroom. I took my fetish to a dark room at an adult party last week where someone else was in charge of me for a while. It felt liberating and raw. Was it worth risking what I have? Am I ready to step beyond vanilla sex just because others are daring me to try? Tell me, should I embrace this part of my sexuality or run the other way?