A Brief Encounter with a Kink

I'm a trans man in my 20s who isn't seeking much from life right now. I recently met someone online, and we agreed to meet up at this local bar known for its crowd of adventurers. The encounter was planned as an exploratory one, nothing serious. We talked about mundane things but ended up playing a consensual game where she acted like her therapist and I was the patient. It felt weirdly liberating to talk through issues with a stranger, and when it turned more physical, there was something thrilling about roleplaying in public. But afterward, everything felt surreal. Am I just looking for a way out of my daily routine or is this typical for people who find solace in unconventional connections?