When I Strayed in Uniform

I’ve been married to my partner for over five years now, and we’re both in the military. We’re stationed abroad right now, and after a while of being open about our relationship dynamics, he suggested we try an open relationship. It’s strange, but it made sense to me, I’d always had this secret part of myself that wanted to explore more, to experience what freedom feels like outside our usual boundaries. So here I am, in this new phase where I’m exploring a kink scene with someone else and feeling all sorts of conflicting emotions. It was with Sarah, another military spouse, during a casual meetup at the base. We started off innocently enough, just catching up over drinks, but there was an undercurrent from both of us that kept growing more intense with each sip. When we ended up alone in her apartment, our mutual attraction turned into something deeper, more carnal. I can’t ignore the guilt and the pleasure tangled together, it feels like a betrayal to my partner, yet it’s also exhilarating to be living this taboo fantasy out loud.