it was her birthday

i got a big surprise for my partner this year but it didnt go how i hoped she wanted something else and when we started she told me to be rougher even tho shes usually pretty gentle we went on like that and the more forceful i got the wetter she got her moans were getting louder and her breathing heavier until finally i just lost it inside of her and she screamed out my name. but then after it was done i could see the sadness in her eyes and now im not sure if shes happy with what we did or regretting it. does anyone else ever struggle with this kind of thing?