Caught in a Moment of Weakness

I’ve been with my partner Sarah for over five years now. We have an amazing relationship, but there’s something I can’t shake off, it feels like a dark secret eating away at me from the inside. Last week, while on duty as a nurse, everything came to a head when I was tending to a patient named Emily who was in her twenties and recovering from surgery. She was in severe pain and asked for help with relieving her discomfort. As I adjusted her position, our eyes met, and there was an unexpected spark that neither of us could ignore. Before I knew it, we were kissing passionately on the side room bed. It escalated quickly, I undressed her as she lay there recovering from surgery, my hands exploring every inch of her body. She whispered for me to take off my clothes too, and then... well, you know what happened next. The intensity was overwhelming, but it felt wrong beyond words. I’m worried about how this will affect both my relationship with Sarah and my career as a nurse if anyone finds out. Do others ever feel like they can’t resist these moments of weakness? Is there something wrong with me for acting on such an impulse even when everything in me should tell me to stop?