First Time Alone Since Breakup

It's been a month since I ended things with my ex. Last night, I finally let myself go wild after weeks of holding back. My fingers slipped under the waistband of my jeans and pulled them off, then I climbed into bed naked. Lying there alone felt strange but also freeing. I rolled over to grab my toy drawer, out came the vibe I hadn't used since before we met. Sliding it inside myself was both painful and comforting at once, like breaking a long fast. My hand slipped down to join in, fingers pressing against buzzing warmth. The room spun as pleasure hit me, louder and sharper than ever before. When I finally came, there were no hands on my body but mine, and it felt so raw and real.