missing them already

i thought we were both ready to move on but it feels different now. i kept thinking about all the times we would talk about our future plans, how excited we both were back then. and now that its over, im realizing how much of those dreams were tied up with them. ive been going through all our old texts, trying to find anything that might still be there. but everything just seems so... distant. i miss the way they would look at me like i was something special, even when we were just lounging around on a lazy sunday. its hard not thinking about those moments and wondering if there could have been more we should have tried before ending it.