My Secret Weekend Getaway

I recently got married after being divorced for a couple of years. My ex-husband was always controlling and manipulative; I never felt truly free until the divorce, but even then, it took time to heal and figure out who I was without him. I met my current husband through a dating app last year, and he’s been incredibly supportive and respectful of my boundaries since day one. But there's something I haven't told him yet, a secret that feels like a heavy burden on my chest. About two months ago, after getting married but before we moved in together, I went away for the weekend with an old friend from college who I've always had feelings for, but never acted on until now. He’s been single since our mutual best friend got married last year. We both knew it was a big risk to get involved again given my recent marriage and his impending move out of state, but there's something about him that just feels right, like we were meant to explore this together, if only for one weekend. It wasn’t casual sex or anything like that; we genuinely connected in a way I hadn't felt since before my divorce. The physical intimacy was intense and emotionally charged. We stayed up late talking, reminiscing about college days when life seemed simpler. The first night, after some wine and old memories, our connection became too much to resist. It wasn’t just about the physical act; it was more like a catharsis for all the bottled-up feelings from years past that neither of us had fully let go of. I’ve been honest with my current husband about my history but not this specific event. I worry how he would react if he knew, would he feel betrayed by my silence, or would he see it as a momentary lapse in judgment given the stress and uncertainty of moving on from divorce? It's hard to decide whether coming clean is worth risking the stability we've built together. For now, I’m keeping this weekend’s secret between us and wondering if there will ever come a time when telling him would be the right choice. Until then, it’s just something I carry with me every day.