feeling old

i feel so weird lately, you know? been married for what seems like forever but just recently realized i have these crazy thoughts about trying something new. kinda scared to talk to my wife about it, she might think im losing my mind or something. the other night we were watching a movie and there was this scene with two guys and all of a sudden i got so turned on thinking about it, which is wild cos its not even really my thing usually. feel like such a perv sometimes.