Wife Doesn't Know About My Fetish

So there's this thing my wife doesn't know about. I've got a fetish for handcuffs and blindfolds, yeah, pretty vanilla stuff by some people’s standards. But here's the kicker: it all started when I was trying to fix our relationship with a romantic dinner at home. She suggested I close the curtains so we could have some privacy, but I went one step further and brought out these leather cuffs and mask I'd been eyeing for months. She said she felt like she didn't know me anymore after that, so I promised never to bring them up again. I still own those things, hidden away in my nightstand drawer. Every now and then, when we're alone at home, I find myself reaching for the handle with the idea of surprising her, but every time, the guilt stops me cold. She’s the most understanding person, so it's not like she would outright refuse or be shocked. Still, here I am, keeping this secret from my partner because apparently even a bit of playful restraint can sound scary coming out of nowhere. Yeah, maybe I'm overthinking it, but who wants to admit they're secretly into something their significant other might initially perceive as too intense? It's one more way I feel like we have these unspoken gaps in our relationship that neither of us knows how to bridge.