Been Struggling with My Desires Lately

So lately I've been feeling really conflicted about stuff. It's like, on one hand, I'm pretty okay being single and having time for myself to grow as a person. But on the other hand... there’s this woman in my life who I’ve been seeing regularly. We talk online, sometimes we even meet up just to hang out or have drinks together. She doesn't know about my trans identity because I’m still figuring it out whether to come clean or not. Anyway, the thing is she's into some pretty spicy stuff that turns me on a lot but also scares me at times. Like, one night we were texting and she said something that just made my blood boil in this really hot way, something about being dominant and controlling. I’ve never felt like that before, but suddenly I was imagining us in this dark room with lots of rope and restraints. I mean, it’s consensual roleplay stuff, totally fine between adults who know what they want... but at the same time, part of me feels really weird about it. I haven’t said anything back to her because honestly, I don't know if I’m ready for that yet. On one hand, my curiosity and desire are getting harder to ignore. But on another hand, there’s this nagging voice in the back of my head telling me it's not right to play with those kinds of power dynamics, even if she initiates them. It's just been eating at me ever since that night we talked about it online. I’m scared to act on it and mess things up between us... but maybe that’s exactly what I need? To just give in for a little while and let myself explore these dark sides of my sexuality instead of bottling them up all the time. Still trying to figure out how to handle this whole situation. Gotta keep thinking about what's best for me, and what kind of future I really want.