Open Relationship Blues

So I just got out of a relationship where we were officially 'open.' It was this grand experiment to test boundaries and explore our sexual freedom. At first, it was exciting; the thrill of seeing someone else, the rush of new experiences... But now that it's over? Let me tell you, it feels like diving into a pool full of broken promises and unmet expectations. On paper, everything should have been great, we both loved exploring and learning from others, but in reality, we were just two people trying to navigate something that felt more complicated than we cared to admit. Here's the kicker: I ended up feeling like I was doing all the work, chasing after dates while my partner sat back and enjoyed watching. Don't get me wrong, there was plenty of fun had by both of us, but it wasn’t always equal or even fair. So here’s my question to anyone out there who's been through something similar: How do you find balance in an open relationship without sacrificing your own needs? Am I the only one feeling this way?