Exploring Beyond the Norm Post-Divorce

Since my divorce a few months back, I've been questioning everything about myself and my past relationships. I always prided myself on being somewhat conventional in my approach to love and sex. But now that my marriage is over, it feels like there's this urge within me to explore something new, something perhaps more daring or unconventional. Recently, I found myself drawn into a situation that was unexpected and, frankly, quite unsettling at first glance. It involved role-playing with someone who had an interest in taboo themes, not necessarily anything illegal or harmful, but definitely outside the realm of 'normal' behavior for me. I'm trying to understand if this is just about novelty post-divorce or if there's something deeper here that I need to explore further. Does diving into these kinds of scenarios mean I’m becoming someone else entirely? Or am I just finally finding a way to express parts of myself that were long suppressed by the expectations and rules of my previous marriage?