Missing My Freedom

Since I started this relationship with him two years ago, every little decision feels like a step further from being my own person. Last night, we had the most intense session of roleplay ever, playing out taboo scenarios that usually scare me but give us an edge. It was exhilarating, yet afterward, all I could think about was how different it would be to do something just for myself once in a while. Does anyone else feel like they're losing themselves in their relationship?