at work again tonight

dude i hate how this job gets into my head sometimes like there’s this one patient she’s in her twenties and shes got a thing for me i know it we’ve been talking more lately but its just not the same as when you’re home alone at night with your own thoughts and yeah i did something tonight that i really shouldn’t have which is why i’m here confessing ok so this chick comes in she’s all upset her bf cheated on her or whatever so there i am trying to take care of her and then my hand accidentally brushes against her leg and it’s like fireworks going off inside me but i keep cool don’t want her to think im a creep so we talk some more about feelings and stuff and its getting late shes crying a lot i just wanna hold her yeah we’re both sitting there in these hospital gowns feeling kinda vulnerable and the door is closed and everything and then boom she leans over whispers in my ear that shes here because of me not him like the cheating guy and before i know it im kissing her back its wild it’s so wrong but oh god it feels good too fingers tangled in hair lips moving against each other tongues sliding around and we’re both panting trying to catch our breaths later after she leaves i just sit there in a daze wondering what happened thinking about those moments when everything was all hot and confused it’s not like i didn’t want her but now i feel sick to my stomach knowing this could’ve gone wrong so many ways