My Night Off Slip-Up

I’m in a good relationship with Alex, who’s in his twenties. We’ve been together for about two years now and have a solid dynamic that works well for us. But last weekend, something happened that really threw me off balance, I had the night off from work, which usually means staying home to unwind or maybe watching some TV before bed. But instead of sticking to my routine, I ended up at this dive bar near the docks where I don’t normally go and ran into old college friend Sam. We hadn’t seen each other since graduation and it was nice catching up over drinks. She’s also in her twenties and has always been someone I’ve had a crush on but never acted on it because of Alex. As the night wore on, we ended up getting pretty tipsy together. The atmosphere was electric with the music playing softly in the background and there were only a few other patrons left inside the bar by then. We started to talk about some old memories and how life has changed for both of us since college. Then without really meaning to or knowing what I was doing, I kissed Sam goodnight when she was leaving. It felt like it meant nothing at first, just a simple peck on her cheek. But before I could pull away, she turned and deepened the kiss. It lasted longer than it should have given my relationship status. Now I’m really questioning if this moment with Sam is telling me something about myself that Alex’s relationship isn’t giving me or if I was just drunk and in the heat of the moment at a bar on my night off. Part of me wants to tell Alex, but another part knows it would only cause problems between us.