The Loneliness Behind The Laughter...

I've been in an open relationship for years now... It's not like I didn't want it, though. When we talked about expanding our circle of intimacy, both my partner and I were excited at the thought... But as time went on... As more people came into the picture... I began to feel a strange emptiness inside me... Last night, I met someone new... A woman in her thirties who was quite enthusiastic. We had incredible sex... It's hard to describe it any other way... She knew exactly what she wanted, and somehow, so did I... The room filled with the sounds of flesh hitting flesh, our grunts and moans mingling together... But as the night ended and we lay there together, something felt off. I felt like a ghost... Watching from afar as my body moved, reacting to hers... In the end, despite all that pleasure, I couldn't shake this feeling of loneliness... Does anyone else feel like this? Like no matter how much sex you have, it's never quite enough to fill the void inside? ...