Confession of My First Law Firm Meeting

I'm engaged to John and we've been together for three years. But last week during my first big meeting at the law firm where I interned, I got so anxious about how smart everyone seemed that I started doodling in my notebook. Little did I know, my coworker Alex had noticed me drawing these really explicit sketches of us together, me and him. It was just a quick pencil sketch, but it showed all of it. And the worst part? When we were wrapping up for the day, he came over to look at what I'd been working on and saw them right there in my notebook. I went red as a tomato and tried to act like they were random art sketches, but he got this knowing grin and leaned in close, his hand brushing mine. 'You really know how to draw,' he whispered, and then he left me alone with the drawings and my racing heart. After that, every time I looked at them or thought about Alex’s proximity during that meeting, it turned my face hot and made me feel guilty but also oddly aroused. It's like a secret thrill knowing there's this part of me that draws him in ways no one else has ever seen before.