I Can't Believe I Did This

After my recent breakup, I found myself drowning in loneliness. One night, feeling particularly desperate for human connection, I stumbled upon a site that offered something different than what I was looking for. It was meant to be just a quick release, nothing more. But... the way he talked... it felt like so much more. The next thing I knew, we were arranging a meeting, and despite my reservations, I went through with it. The encounter itself wasn't awful, but it definitely wasn’t what I wanted. Afterwards, I couldn't help but feel ashamed for letting myself be that vulnerable when all along, I just needed to give myself more time. Now, every touch from another man makes me cringe a little inside...