Caught in the Act of Pleasure

It's been a few weeks since I got engaged to Sarah, and while we've always been intimate, there's this recent turn where my desire has surged in ways that feel both familiar and new. Last night, after dinner with her family, she went to bed early because of an upcoming work conference call. But I couldn't sleep, so I started thinking about how much I loved the feeling of control over my body, which led me down a path of self-exploration in the spare bedroom where we have some toys and accessories for roleplay. As I played with one particular piece, a leather harness she gave me for my birthday last year, I realized that the pleasure wasn't enough without her knowing about it, craving her reaction to something unexpected from me. So I decided to make a video of myself in action, not intending to share it but needing to see and hear it play back. The sensation was intense as I moved against the dildo, my body trembling with each thrust, feeling how the leather straps tightened around my waist and legs with every motion. It's a strange thing to admit, that even alone, there’s still this craving for her approval, her eyes on me in moments like these. Afterward, I hesitated, knowing the video could be a line too far crossed between intimacy and intrusion. But then again, isn't that what being fully present with someone is about? Pushing boundaries and finding ways to be completely honest, even if it’s just for ourselves.