A Secret from My Heart

I've been in a committed relationship for over two years now, but something has been gnawing at me since before I transitioned. You see, ever since I met my partner as an assigned male at birth and we began dating, there was this overwhelming sense of confusion inside me that just wouldn't go away. It wasn’t until after my transition that I finally understood what it was, I’ve been secretly fantasizing about being dominated in bed by him. The idea of surrendering control to him while fully expressing my femininity is exhilarating yet terrifying, as it clashes so sharply with the rest of our dynamic outside the bedroom. Yesterday we tried something new for the first time. He blindfolded me and tied my hands above my head, his dominance was clear but gentle. His fingers slipped under the waistband of my panties, and I felt a shiver run down my spine as he explored me. When he entered me, it was like every nerve in my body woke up, buzzing with sensations I never knew existed until now. I screamed out his name, begging him to move faster and deeper, craving more than just physical pleasure. Is this normal for someone who's transitioned? Do others go through similar struggles with their sexuality as they redefine themselves post-transition?