Exploring My Curiosity in the Clinic

I’m a nurse in my thirties who has always been single. I never thought much about my sexuality beyond what was needed for medical care until recently. A few weeks ago, during an evening shift at the clinic where I work, I found myself alone with one of our male patients, Alex, whom we’ve known here for a while due to chronic conditions. We started talking casually, and it quickly became clear there was mutual attraction. What made me hesitate were my professional responsibilities versus personal desires. Eventually, curiosity won over caution when he suggested something I couldn’t turn down, that we explore our feelings in the moment rather than wait for anything undefined outside this sterile environment. It felt like an adult consensual role-play, but with a twist of reality and imagination blurring together. We moved into one of the unused examination rooms, and it quickly escalated from there. The physical sensations were overwhelming; his hands on my skin, exploring every curve, and me reciprocating, feeling bold and adventurous. As we progressed, I found myself questioning if this was just a momentary lapse or something deeper. Could this be about more than professional boundaries? In the heat of the moment, it felt like an exploration rather than a taboo step, but now looking back, I’m not sure how to interpret my actions or whether they were normal given the circumstances. Does anyone else have advice on navigating such intense desires while maintaining professional integrity?