That Night at the Bar When It All Changed

I've been engaged for about a year now, and my fiancé is a great guy. We both work in bars, so we see each other all the time between our shifts. I'd always had this thing where I would flirt with random strangers, just for fun, nothing serious. But one night last week at a different bar, it went too far. I was working the till when this guy walked in. He looked like your typical hipster, the glasses, the beard, everything. And he was alone, which always makes me curious. I started to flirt with him, and for some reason, he seemed into it, like way more than usual. We went back and forth, playing a little game of cat and mouse. Before we knew it, drinks were flowing and the jokes got dirty. Then came the touchy stuff. He was leaning in, whispering naughty things to me, and I felt this rush I hadn't felt in months, since before my engagement. It hit me hard, this sudden need for something that wasn’t part of our life anymore. We went into a corner booth together where no one could see us too clearly through the dim lights. His hands were all over me, and I let him because I couldn't help myself. There was just such an intensity in his eyes. I can still feel it when I close my eyes now, this electric tingle running down my spine. But then things got blurry. One moment, we're playing up the flirty game, but the next, I kissed him back. Hard. It wasn't like anything with my fiancé. This was rough and needy, almost desperate. He tasted like whiskey and something else, something intoxicatingly new. And I wanted more. I guess what worries me most is how quickly it all happened, moving from playful banter to something much deeper and darker. Now I'm left wondering if this was just a release or the start of something dangerous. My fiancé doesn't know yet, he's so trusting. What happens when he finds out? Do I tell him everything, or try to hide what can never truly be hidden? I suppose I'm stuck here now, torn between my commitment and the undeniable truth that I still crave something wild and untamed.