miss u tonight

i went to this private kink party last night and it was crazy. i know my partner would never do stuff like that but i wanted it so bad. we agreed to just be open about our fantasies and not act on them, but seeing all those people getting down and dirty... it was a real turn-on for me. i couldn't stop thinking about it when i got home. i feel bad now because i can see how much my partner values monogamy, even though we both know i have these other desires too. miss u tonight