Alone Again Tonight

Went to a bar hoping for some company but ended up alone, again. Found a quiet alley behind it and just...did myself. Felt the cold cement under my hands as I pressed into it, the roughness against my skin was like my frustration with life. Pulled down my pants and let my cock out, it looked pathetic all hard and blue in the dim glow of distant streetlights. Stroked myself fast, feeling how empty everything is now that everyone thinks I’m something else than what I am deep inside. Hard groans slipping past my lips as my hand sped up, smearing pre-cum on me. Cum splattered onto the ground, so much of it, more than I usually do alone. Looked down at all of it, just another reminder that I'm stuck in this shell and can't escape to someone who gets me.