Feeling Lost After Divorce

I'm feeling lost after my divorce. My marriage ended suddenly and it hit me hard emotionally. We tried for a while but ultimately we just grew apart, I guess. Now I'm alone with my thoughts, wondering where to go from here. It's like waking up one day and realizing everything you thought about your life isn't true anymore. It's been tough trying to figure out who I am outside of being someone's wife. To cope, I started exploring different things sexually, more adventurous stuff than before. I met this person online, we talked a lot first and then decided on some roleplay games over video chat. It helped me feel alive again somehow, connecting with another human even if just virtually. We never went all the way, but it was something intimate that felt safe since my divorce. I'm still trying to process everything. Lately, I've been thinking about what kind of person I want to be now that I'm single. It's scary and exciting at the same time.