i felt ashamed but relieved

today i told my partner about this thing that's been eating me up inside for so long. we've been together since our 20s and have always been open with each other but there was one part of myself i kept hiding. it feels good to not be alone anymore but also kinda scared because what if they change how they see me now? i mean it's still just a part of who i am, right? we talked about some fantasies that involve roleplay stuff and i never thought it would come up in conversation like this before. deep breaths, one day at a time.