...And Then I Felt Free Again...

So much has happened since my divorce. My ex-wife left me because she said I didn't satisfy her anymore. She wanted something more adventurous than what I could offer, and honestly, we just grew apart as people too. I felt lost and confused after the breakup... until a few weeks ago when I finally mustered up the courage to go out for drinks with friends again. And that's where it happened. I was at this small bar downtown with some old buddies of mine. It had been ages since we hung out like this. We were all just laughing and having a good time, but then I saw her...this beautiful woman walking in. Her name is Maggie, and she's in her twenties. She caught my eye instantly. We ended up talking as the night went on. There was something about Maggie that made me feel alive again; like I wasn't just some middle-aged divorcee who had lost his way. We exchanged numbers...and then last weekend we actually met up for coffee to catch up properly. I know this is wrong, and I shouldn't be keeping it from my new wife. But there's something about Maggie that feels right in a way my marriage never did. It wasn't just the sex, though that was amazing too, it was everything about how connected we felt as people...and yes, she introduced me to some kinks of her own that I hadn't tried before... And now, every time I talk to Maggie, even if it's a simple text message or call, something inside me comes alive. It's hard to explain but I know this can't go on forever...I don't want to get divorced again after just being married for six months! But I also feel like keeping her in my life is what will make me truly happy and fulfilled. ... So there you have it...my secret that keeps me up at night wondering if maybe I should come clean about. But the thought of losing everything with my new wife scares me too. What would happen then? ...