I'm So Lost Without Him...

Since the divorce, I've been this weird mix of relieved and miserable. Last night was just... intense. We started out talking about our mutual friend, then it got steamy and... I don't know how to describe it. It felt like everything we had before came rushing back in a way that hurt. Now all I can think is if there's hope for us or if this was just some last fling before moving on. The pain and the comfort are so tangled, it feels like I'm choking on them.