my secret lover

i met her last year at a conference and we just hit it off she was so smart and funny i felt like i could talk to her about anything even though i m married its confusing but she understands too we make sure no one knows we meet in random places hotels motels parks sometimes she tells me she has fantasies of being caught by my wife or others watching us which freaks me out a little but turns me on it makes me feel like im living two lives at once this morning i had to leave early and go straight to work without seeing her it felt weird to be alone with no one waiting for me when she s not here everything feels different even though it shouldn t it s hard to explain the pull between us we talk every day over texts videos sometimes its like a fire inside burning hotter every time we have sex i want her more and more each week but also feel guilty confused scared all at once it s exhausting but i can t stop i need this with her