still trying to figure it out

just got back from a weekend getaway with my new partner lila. we're both pretty messed up and i've never had sex that raw since before the divorce, you know? it was like everything before just fell away when our bodies started moving together in this hotel room. she's so into me, her moans were loud as hell, fingers digging into my skin while i buried myself deep inside of her. we both came hard, sweating and panting with eyes locked the whole time. there's something about being free from a past relationship that lets you dive headfirst into new ones, but at what cost? it feels great but also weirdly out of place sometimes.