New Beginnings?

Since my divorce last month, I've been exploring new things in bed. It's a little scary, but mostly exhilarating to be honest. The freedom feels incredible, like I can finally express myself without reservations. Last night was particularly exciting; there were no rules and no shame for the first time ever. After so long of putting others' needs before my own, it felt like rediscovering my desires after decades in a deep freeze. I've started chatting with folks online who seem to share similar interests, things I never would have dreamed possible when married. But here's what worries me: is this just post-divorce madness? Or am I finally being true to myself? Should I embrace these new fantasies and connections as liberating, or retreat back into the comfort of my previous life?