just felt like i needed to get this out there

so last week after my divorce became final, i was feeling really lost and just wanted something different. one night i stumbled upon a site for roleplay with strangers online. i ended up talking to someone who proposed a sort of reverse power dynamic scenario where they played the subservient part and i got to be in control. it was... interesting. we had this long conversation setting things up, discussing limits, and then eventually moved onto live cam stuff. it felt really empowering at first but also kinda weird. afterward, i couldn't stop thinking about how different everything is now that my marriage ended and how i'm still figuring out what i want from sex and relationships moving forward.