My Office Kink at the Water Cooler

I just ended things with my long-term girlfriend of three years. We broke up a week ago over some mundane disagreements that grew into resentments and eventually led to a breakup I feel neither of us was really prepared for. The whole thing feels rather anticlimactic, if I’m being honest. Now here I am at work, feeling lonely and bored as hell, with no real prospects on the horizon. But last night, something surprising happened that made me question whether my current state is all bad. While working late in an empty office after everyone had gone home, I found myself wandering over to the water cooler for a drink. You know how it feels kind of chilly when you first touch it? Well, as I was grabbing some cold water and taking sips from the dispenser, I noticed that my hand started getting numb on one side. Then something odd occurred. As I held onto the water cooler with one hand while leaning against it slightly to catch a drink in my other, a sudden feeling came over me. A thrill, really, it felt like someone had snuck up behind me and was pressing their chest to my back, their breath hot on the nape of my neck. It's weird how that sensation turned into an unexpected arousal. I couldn't stop thinking about the cold metal against my hand as a subtle but intense reminder of being touched from behind. Later that night in bed, I found myself exploring this feeling further with self-exploration. I realized I had been craving something more adventurous and intimate than usual, I wanted to be taken by surprise, just like when my hand met the cold water cooler. It made me feel alive again after weeks of monotony. This morning at work, I walked over to the same spot where it all started, thinking maybe there's more to this kink than I first assumed. Maybe there’s a way I can turn that surprising spark into something tangible or even share it with someone if I can find the right person. So here’s my question: Am I totally nuts for finding some pleasure in an unexpected place? Have any of you ever found yourself getting turned on by unconventional things and decided to go with it instead of resisting? Let me know your thoughts, I’d love to hear from anyone who's been there or who thinks I'm not entirely alone.