I Made A Decision I'm Still Not Sure About

It started around midterm season this year. My girlfriend, who's in her twenties, and I have a great relationship, we support each other through tough times, but there are things we haven't explored yet. We've talked about the fact that she wants to try more adventurous stuff, and I do too. There's just always been something holding me back from proposing ideas that could be... out of my comfort zone. Last week, after a particularly hard day at class, I suggested that maybe it was time for us both to step up our game in the bedroom. We decided on a roleplay session where she would take charge and play the part of a demanding boss lady. It's something we've talked about before but never actually done. The night arrived, and everything felt right, I had my costume ready (the assistant uniform) and I was mentally prepared for whatever happened next. As the scene unfolded, there were moments when she pushed me to do things that really challenged my limits; it wasn't just physical, but mental too. She wanted me to do some of those fantasies I've kept secret in my mind but never dared to share out loud. By the end, despite feeling incredibly vulnerable and a bit shaken up by the intensity, I knew there was something very special about what we shared that night. But now, several days later, I can't stop wondering if maybe I went too far or not enough. Did she feel used? Did it break us in a way we'll never recover from, or did it bring us closer than ever before? In the end, despite all these questions swirling around my mind, one thing is certain: the experience left an indelible mark on our relationship. I can only hope that whatever comes next will be as meaningful and transformative.