Late Night Thoughts and an Experiment in Solitude...

Working nights is brutal... always feeling like I’m living in a half-sleep world. It’s been months since my last relationship ended, but something about the solitude of these night shifts has me rethinking everything. Tonight was just another day at work until it got to be 2 AM and an old friend texted, asking if I wanted to meet up... but I declined... I started thinking about this woman from a while back who had shared her interest in CNC roleplay with me. We’d never acted on it then, but she’d always intrigued me, someone willing to explore that kind of taboo dynamic. The idea had been gnawing at the edges of my mind for weeks... so I decided to experiment alone tonight... I put on a costume... don’t know why exactly. It was like stepping into someone else’s skin briefly, becoming this persona she might be interested in. Laying there in the dark, thinking about her in control over me, it wasn’t scary... just incredibly intoxicating and strange how good it felt... I’m not sure where that leaves things, whether I’ll reach out to her again or try another experiment on my own. Either way, it’s all new territory for me...