Just Another Deployment Night

So yeah, here I am, typing this up during another deployment. Usually, I'd say it's fine, been single for years now, and who needs that kind of hassle anyway? But tonight, I felt a little extra lonely. Decided to browse some dating apps just out of boredom, but honestly, none of the profiles were doing much for me. Ended up in this forum where folks confess random stuff, and figured why not, might as well share something mildly embarrassing. So, there's this thing that happens when I'm feeling particularly lonely, which is pretty often around deployments. I end up watching porn or something similar to pass the time, but tonight was weirdly different. There was a new series out on some platform about military spouses and their secret fantasies during deployment, kind of silly stuff, really, like role-playing with someone back home pretending to be in basic training again. Silly idea, I know, but it got me thinking: would I ever actually do something like that if the right person came along? Probably not, but there's always a little corner of my mind wondering. And here I am, typing this on some random forum at three in the morning because I have nothing better to do.