Caught in the Moment

I shouldn't be writing this, I know. Married just a month ago and already doing something like this behind my wife's back... We're both in our late twenties, and we have a good life together. But ever since that divorce, there's been this lingering pull inside me to try things out again with the ex who still lives nearby. It started innocently enough - just drinks at night when my new spouse was busy or asleep. But last week... We ended up having sex in an empty office at work during lunch hour. I'm not sure how it happened, really, but before we knew it our clothes were off and she was guiding me inside her. I felt so conflicted - part of me wanted to stop and run back home to my wife, but another part just couldn't resist the heat between us. It's been a month now and every time I think about it, I feel sick yet oddly drawn towards that moment again. I never thought I'd end up cheating like this after getting remarried. But sometimes when you're alone at night, with nothing but your own thoughts... You start wondering if maybe there was more to my marriage before the divorce than I let on to myself and everyone else.