Been Thinking About This Lately

So I've been having this thing on my mind lately. It started a couple months ago when I was at a friend's party and there was someone there who caught my eye, you know? Not that we're anything, but something just felt... off. Like there was this other side to me, one that my partner doesn't see because they know everything else about me. And yeah, it ended up happening, I know, I should've stopped myself, right? But in the moment, there was just this rush and everything else kind of faded out. It's not like we ever spoke much after that either, but it's stuck with me ever since. Sometimes when I'm alone at night, thinking about all this stuff, I feel guilty, and then I wonder why it even matters if no one needs to know except for myself. And here we are, trying to figure out what to do next. It's a little crazy how something so small can keep you up nights.