Secret Fantasies in the Hospital Ward

I’ve been practicing medicine for years now, but there’s this one thing that I can’t shake off. It started with a patient a few months back, she was around my age and came to me for regular checkups. One day, while we were alone in the room, it just happened. We had both been through stressful weeks, and as I was finishing up her examination, our eyes met in this moment of vulnerability. Before either of us knew it, the conversation shifted into something much more intimate than it should have. It felt like a violation, not only professionally but also personally. I’ve never acted on my feelings before and certainly never with someone so close to me at work. It’s been haunting me since then because despite everything, there was an undeniable chemistry between us. The memory of that day makes my palms sweat every time I think about it. To be honest, I don’t know if it ever will go away or how I’ll manage the guilt moving forward.