Silent Desires

I've been in this relationship with Alex since we were both 18. It's good overall, but lately I've felt a void, something missing between us that has nothing to do with sex itself. Last week, after another night of just holding each other and falling asleep early, I found myself craving more intimacy, fantasies about someone else filling my head as I lay awake next to Alex. I know it's not because he isn't enough for me; we've talked about compatibility before. Yet these desires have left me feeling guilty and disconnected, wondering how long I can suppress the reality that even with a partner who loves me unconditionally, there are parts of me that might never feel satisfied.