Caught Between Two Flames - Seeking Advice from Fellow Voyeurs and Sages of Love

So here's the deal. I'm in my mid-fifties and have been married to Jane for over 30 years now. We've had our fair share of ups and downs, but lately, we've decided that monogamy wasn't quite fulfilling us anymore. This was around six months ago when we began exploring open relationships. It's like rediscovering the thrill and excitement you felt at the start of your romantic journey, just with a twist. I mean, who knew opening up our relationship could bring back such a spark in an established marriage? But that's not why I'm here today. Six weeks into this new chapter, I met Sarah through one of those online dating apps tailored for folks looking to explore non-monogamy. She's fiery and passionate, quite the opposite of my usual type, who tends to be more reserved like Jane. When we first talked over coffee (I know, old-school dating at its finest), there was a palpable tension that wasn't just romantic but also intellectual. Sarah is sharp-witted and full of life experiences that I find fascinating. Fast forward two weeks later, and the chemistry had only grown stronger between us. Jane and I agreed it was okay to explore this connection further on our terms. So last week, we went out as a trio for an anniversary dinner at this fancy French restaurant where you can actually hear people's conversations over the clinking of fine china (the irony). It started off great, lots of laughter, some playful banter between Sarah and I which had Jane in stitches too. But then things escalated. We ended up back at our place that night with an open invitation for all parties to join however they pleased. To make a long story short (though I could easily go into more detail if you're curious), it was magical, liberating, and exhilarating, something I hadn't felt since my twenties. But here's the rub: after the steamy interlude, there’s this lingering feeling of being torn between two incredible women who both mean a lot to me. Now, I don’t regret what happened, I wouldn’t be writing this if I did, but it does leave me wondering how to navigate these waters going forward. Is it normal to feel so caught in the middle like this? What advice do you have for someone trying to maintain a balance between two people who deserve my full attention and affection? I look forward to hearing your thoughts.