Just A Little Fun

So, there’s this guy I’ve been dating for a couple months now. We’re good together, he treats me right and we have a solid connection. But one thing has been gnawing at me, there’s just this little kink of mine that I can’t seem to shake. You know how it is sometimes... you try to play it cool but deep down you want something a bit more taboo or risky. We’d been talking about this for weeks, and finally he gave in one night after a few drinks. It wasn’t anything major, just a simple roleplay where I’m supposed to be like his naughty secretary and he’s the boss who “disciplines” me... you know what I mean. It was all consensual and we made sure that it wouldn't affect us going forward, but afterwards there were just these weird feelings lingering. He kept acting strange afterward, like I’d crossed some line or something. But honestly? I don’t regret a thing. I enjoyed every second of it... the thrill, the danger, everything.... It was such a rush and it brought us so close together in a way we hadn't before. But now there’s this tension, maybe he doesn’t feel the same about me anymore? I haven’t told anyone else about it. My friends are supportive but they don’t know what to think of this side of me... my coworkers would freak out if they knew. So I’m just sitting on all these feelings, trying not to let them consume me....