It Wasn't Just Roleplay Anymore

I've been seeing this guy for a few weeks now. Nothing serious, but we're enjoying each other's company. Last night, we tried something new, CNC roleplay in the bedroom. We agreed on all the boundaries and made sure to signal words if anything felt off. He was rough with me, pretending to force me into positions I never would've imagined trying otherwise. But when he took my hand and pressed it against his hard-on while whispering those dirty words...I wanted him so badly. The moment we crossed that line between pretend and real, everything went dark. His breath on my neck as he thrust inside me, taking control like he meant it, my mind couldn't process if this was still a game or not until I came around to the reality of how good it felt. We ended up making love for hours afterwards, talking through all our feelings and ensuring we hadn't crossed any true lines. But now that taste of forbidden pleasure haunts me.