my patient turned out to be my new fantasy lover

just had the wildest night last week, right after getting a divorce. was doing a checkup on this guy who seemed so confident and hot. he's in his forties but looks way younger. we both felt it, tension building up between us. i left to give him privacy for his test but came back later with supplies thinking everything was done. turns out he wanted me close still. pulled me into the room, started touching me under my scrubs right there on the table. fingers sliding everywhere inside me, making these deep moaning sounds. had to take control then, pushing him onto his back, straddling him and riding him with a condom i kept in my bag just in case. felt so wrong yet perfect, taking charge like that in a place where i'm supposed to be the one in control. done now but still shaking thinking about it. is this normal? am i crazy for even wanting that?