...So I Told My Professor About My Kink...

I’ve been in grad school for three years now, studying literature under a pretty renowned professor. She’s married but we have this weird dynamic going on where she knows about my interest in bondage and kink scenes. It all started when I was taking her class as an undergrad; one day she came into lecture with a wrist cuff around her hand. It was subtle, just there, but it made me wonder... Was she like me? Did she have this thing too? I approached her after class and asked if the cuff was new. She looked at me for a long moment before admitting it was something from an experience of hers that had nothing to do with any student... until today. After I left, my heart was racing but then I couldn’t stop thinking about what she might mean by that last part. It’s been years since then, and we’ve built up this unspoken understanding through the occasional wordplay or small conversations. Fast forward to a few weeks ago, when she asked me to help her prepare for an upcoming lecture series on sexual themes in Victorian literature. I knew she wanted more than just research help... so I got ready. I showed up to our meeting at her office with some handcuffs and blindfolds I thought we could use as visual aids since the topic was on censorship and eroticism in that period. She looked surprised but intrigued when I mentioned them being useful props for our presentation. We ended up having a long talk about boundaries, which she respected. We did an actual scene after... and it felt like such an adult exchange between two equals who respect each other’s limits and desires. No one was hurt or uncomfortable; it was consensual all the way through. Afterwards, we went back to our professional relationship as though nothing happened. But I know there are times when my professor looks at me differently now... I hope what we have is kept private but also that it continues. Even if it’s just a small part of how we interact, it feels important to acknowledge the complexity and humanity in academia too. So here’s to secret meetings and unspoken connections. ...