Felt Alive With Him

I’ve always kept my past pretty much to myself. I’ve never felt comfortable with people knowing too many details about who I was before transition. But lately, there’s this guy I’ve been seeing casually, I’ll just call him Dave for now, and he’s the first person in a long time who makes me feel like more than what society tells me I should be. Last weekend, we went to his place and things got pretty steamy. We were talking about our kinks and desires and it hit me: I wanted him to call me by my pre-transition name. It felt so freeing and exhilarating, just letting go of all the labels society had placed on me. Dave was a little taken aback at first but then he understood and went along with it. It was amazing, feeling that connection with someone who knows you fully, including parts of yourself you usually hide. I don’t know if we’ll keep doing this, or how long it will last between us, but in that moment, it felt right and authentic.