caught myself

so i met this girl at a bar last week and we ended up going back to her place. she's in her mid-twenties and super into bdsm stuff, which surprised me since i never thought of myself that way. but once we started, it kinda clicked and felt right. we did some light play and stuff, but there was something about being tied up and not having control that turned me on more than i ever expected. after a while, i found myself begging for more and wanting her to push harder, even though part of me knows better. still trying to wrap my head around it all.